January 31, 2011

Caroline, My Beautiful Girl,

Words cannot even express how badly I miss you. My heart aches for you each and every day. I can’t believe so much time has passed since we had to say goodbye to you. Sometimes when I look back, it feels like an eternity, other times, it seems like you were in my arms just yesterday.

I’ve been having a really tough time missing you lately. There have been so many things that I wanted to share with you. We’ve had snow, and I wanted me, you, Daddy, and Wally to play in the snow. We’ve had spring-like days that I wanted to take you to the park or for a walk. We’ve gone places, places I wanted to take you with us. We’ve talked about you constantly, and missed you more than words can express.

I’m just missing you so much. I miss your smile, which I never got to see. I miss your laugh, which I never got to hear. I miss singing silly songs with you. I miss having jokes with you. I miss getting to see you start school. I miss you giggling with your friends. I miss you learning to drive. I miss your first date. I miss your high school and college graduations. I miss you getting married. I miss your children. I miss YOU.

We go into your room nightly to tell you how much we love you and hope that you’re sleeping well in Heaven. Do you hear us? I touch my necklace with your name on it and tell you that I love you, can you hear me? I hug the purple blanket that you rested in briefly, can you feel it?

Caroline, my girl, you changed our lives. You are amazing, and I am so thankful for you. My prayer is that God is keeping you and holding you for now, so that I can hold you one day.

Love you with my whole heart, Sweet Girl,

Mommy